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Shadow86
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Sick of fighting the black dog

Hi, im new here.

Several years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and it's been an ongoing struggle to keep myself stable. Recently all my years of hard work in therapy have gone down the drain. 

 

My relationship with my husband is in ruins... he so sick and tired of me. I feel like he hates me. I'm too hard to deal with and I feel like he's had enough. 

 

I just want him to love and support me like he used to do but my mental health has taken a toll on my marriage and he can no longer deal with my emotional ups and downs. 

 

There is so much bitterness and resentment in our marriage and I feel like he's checked put already. We are like room mates just coexisting in our home with our 3 children the youngest who is only 4 years old. 

 

I cant stand to live like this anymore.. I hate it. I don't know how to fix it. He won't even communicate with me anymore because I just make things too hard. 

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Re: Sick of fighting the black dog

Welcome, @Shadow86 , I'm really sorry to hear this. 

 

I'm wondering what supports you have? Family, friends, and also professional support? Like a counsellor, meds, psychologist or psychiatrist?

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Re: Sick of fighting the black dog

Hey @Shadow86 ,

 

I'm sorry to hear it has come to this point. It sounds so difficult to co-exist under the same roof but barely speak to each other. I'm hearing how much you want to get better, yet it feels like a losing battle.

 

Have you ever tried speaking to him and asking what he wants out of the marriage? That is, is he satisfied with how things are going right now for him? Sometimes, when being stuck in the thick of things, it is hard to see the forest amongst the trees.

 

It sounds like a crucial time for the whole family, especially since you have young children involved.

 

Currently, what supports to you have in place for yourself?

Re: Sick of fighting the black dog

And, I forgot to add, since you have shared about the Black Dog, have you seen this clip? @Shadow86 

 

https://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc?feature=shared

 

This helped me a lot when I was in a state of dark depression. It gave me hope and a longing for things to get better.

At its worst, depression can be a frightening, debilitating condition. Millions of people around the world live with depression. Many of these individuals and their families are afraid to talk about their struggles, and don't know where to turn for help. However, depression is largely preventable
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