I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I do get a lot out of our chats. @tyme. I’m really horrible sometimes, or maybe a lot of the time. 

Thanks for believing in me. 

Im on nightshift Wednesday and Thursday night so I won’t be around either. 

Chat up Friday? 

[Captain24]

I have to get up at 4:30 and I’m still awake. Being awake so late is not what I need right now. The thoughts won’t stop circulating. They’re getting louder and stronger. 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @Captain24 I can hear that you were having a tough time getting to sleep yesterday.

How are you feeling today?

[Jynx]

@Captain24 Popping in to send some love 💜

[Captain24]

Thanks @Jynx you're really kind. 

[Captain24]

I had a massive achievement today @Jynx 

[Jynx]

Tell me tell me!! @Captain24 

[Captain24]

We had a meeting with the General Manager. There was about 60

people in the room. He was telling us how we were getting a new dig unit (I know it makes no sense to you). I had a question and I went over and over it in my head. When he asked if there was any questions… I piped up and said yes. Then I asked my water cart question. I didn’t get the answer I wanted but I spoke up in a room with all those people and didn’t stumble over my words and I didn’t feel stupid. I know everyone wanted an answer to my question. 

That was huge for me @Jynx 

[Jynx]

Yes yes yes @Captain24 that IS huge! I'm so proud of you!! 

Makes me do a lil Snoopy happy dance!! 

Ach, bet your heart was beating out your chest ay! Mine always does haha. But then after you get that like... idk adrenaline afterglow I guess? 

You superstar 😊🌟

[Captain24]

It was beating a little fast @Jynx. My question was the talk of the crew for the day. But in a positive way. Someone finally asked that question. It felt a little bit good. 

The GM did stop me on the way out and we had a one on one discussion. He listened to what I had to say and he said it all depends on the contractors but he took me seriously. 

In a world that’s really shitty and dark. I mean really dark and I’m not sure I can answer those questions, it was a little positivity that I found. I am a little proud of myself.