Bad start to the week

[Former-Member]

I'm so teary here @chookmojo, looking at your wonderful little chicken family. You are in my hearts grief for them, & for you. I am very sincere when I tell you this! They loved you so much I can see this, I am so in tune with nature.
They are Beautiful!

((((((chookmojo)))))

Bella.

[PeppiPatty]

Hi @Former-Member
Like what you have written.
I'm running around doing some things so will get back to you. Thanks so much for your message, get back to you very soon :0)

[chookmojo]

Well the funeral went off without incident. It was actually quite lovely and joyous as well as sad. Grandma was very Christian and quite a few in the family also, so it was very religious and very uplifting and comforting for them, that was very clear. I got to learn quite a lot about her rather amazing life that I had never known before.

The burial was up in the Macedon ranges at a really lovely cemetery, and then we went to the local pub for food. 

Though I had to make small talk with a tonne of people, many of whomI had no idea who they were (I am rather bad at recognising people comes from not looking at them and mostly that nking about how to get away I suspect!) I did not get anxiety at all. There were a couple of awkward moments, but no panic or anxiety, and I can even say it was a good day. If I had to go to work today I could without drama, but I have the day off, which is even better.

The other thing I handled well was being a passenger in the car on a very wet day. I get quite anxious as a passenger, I am always imagining crashes, and set weather makes it a lot worse. But I only had the mildest bit of anxiety about it and even fell asleep in the car!

I am constantly amazed at how much difference the meds have made for me, and that I fought tooth and nail daily to cope without them for 30 odd years. Still I learned so much about coping mechanisms, and my own headspace as a result it puts me in a strong position now. More resources are always better.

[Jacques]

Hi @chookmojo,

I am glad the medication is working for you, and you managed to go to such a big anxiety provoking even without incident, i wish you well for the future, by the sounds of it, it looks very bright.

Take Care

Jacques

[chookmojo]

Thanks @Jacques, at thank you for mentioning colouring books at the news agents, I didn't find a mandala one, but did find several nice ones.

[PeppiPatty]

At last @Former-Member
I can answer your message.
How are you ? How is your flu ? I've been mega mega busy but in bed now.
I can concentrate at last !

What you have typed and written isn't deep. Although I am not ' that old, ' I'm 47 years and truly believe that if you focus on helping ' like minded,' people, you are very silently.... Helping yourself and also learning how to care further for yourself.

So it feels like : to me : you might be able to find different support : how does having support workers in during the week just to say .......watch television with you ? You seem super clever to me.... But incredibly .... Worn out. Someone Like you ..... It just feels like ...... You have worked very hard to please others.
It feels like that if you can get your days into a routine ?
Have only colours around that you like ? I really like the colours blue and green. It feels like I'm going to be researching blue and green for my home but at last .....I've worked out how to make a blue and green headboard for my bed. Firstly. One day . I'm the future, ille go to an op shop and get a white bed sheet ...... Wax it up and batik it blue and green. Ille then get an old mattress ( thin ) and cut it to size and tape the batik material around the mattress and a thin board to make a headboard for my bed !

[Former-Member]

I am sooooooooooo worn out, from 5 years isolated, in this house I call home, with this Chronic pain, :'( @PeppiPatty.
I love to make jewelry, yet when I go to make it I'm too tired & my hand hurts so bad, sometimes?....I just stop in mid stream. ( If I were swimming, I would probably drown? )
I don't like TV, too many abusive shows. I hate getting upset, or angry because of them.
I have hundreds of my own DVD'S, I love comedies. I giggle my head off, I'm sure neighbors can hear me.
I am a sucker for romance, as long as it's not abusive. I adore fantasy, I imagine myself there in it when I watch them, it's sometimes so amazing!!
When I was working I was far too mentally worn out to appreciate my DVD'S. I have a water bed, & I would come home from work & do what was needed to do. then I would go float on my water bed, & drift into my own little fantasy land world. I would pretend I were floating on a Lilly pad, on a pond. Wow, it was such a wonderful feeling, after 6 hours traveling. Three hours each way to work. The type of work that I did I loved. But, boy, oh boy, it was full on mentally.
I love your plan to make a bed board for your bed, you must be clever?
My colours are- Burgundy, pink, lavender, & I love gold, & silver, high lights. I have blue, & green in my bathroom.
Thank you so much for your care for me, you make me smile.
You are sweet!
Love,
Bella! 🙂

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Former-Member

I love your pic I can see you swirling on your lily pond.

I also have chronic pain and gets very wearing.

What type of work did you?

[PeppiPatty]

Omg getting ripples of the water it's a nice feeling on a water bed isn't it ?
Hello @Former-Member
Thank you for your message ! Thank you for calling me sweet !
I was never able to work ...... Until I discovered caring for individuals in the community. I find it very easy and fulfilling showing empathy. Probably because my youngest son was so ill for many years. He's better now.

I love making jewellery too and doing art and hand sewing. . I also get very tired and overwhelmed very easily. I need a lot of calm. But because of no pain, I work very hard on getting into the community. I also have Silver chain on cleaning and keeping up to date with my artwork I get 3 to 4 hours per fortnight social help.

Can you get your GP too understand this may be something that can assist you have a better daily life ?

Hope to hear from you soon /0) from Anne

[Former-Member]

I am an, 'After Care worker', @Appleblossom.
I loved my job very much, I got to meet & talk to, so many gr8 people living independently from the hospital system, in group home situations. I collected data from the tenants ,to enable the living stand-eds to be studied & improved, for the people.
I have done many jobs in the area on MHS, over a period time. I started off voluntary, doing what ever I could, even if it were making lunches, & facilitating groups. I then trained @ the - Uni- for a number of years to become a, 'Research Assistant', in Psychology.

Now I'm a hidden, aching mess! 

I think I will just sink to the bottom of the water bed, & stay there, & become a, tad pole!
Boo Hoo! :'(