the longest wait while being petrified

[outlander]

You have and always do give words of wisdom @Sans911
I know i have to do things slowly. I just feel like its going way to slow. Like im not actuallh getting anywhere. I mean i go to psych and gp and all the rest ro get better that way but i just feel like im getting bo where. Yes a struggle to survive. I want to live and feel alive too not just be a walking robot... im either full of emotio and i dont know what to do with them or no emotions at all.
Is it really going to be this slow the whole way... i know this will never stop. And itll always be baby steps but a littlw bit of movement would be nice.

I love your hugs btw and i love the way you 'speak' its quite comforting ❤❤❤

Im having weird worrying feelings today though. I went to the bath room and aince im wearing singlets atm as i find them to not rub as much as normal tvs and just had a weird feeling come over. I dont really know what it is but im worried that maybe they didnt get it all. They seemed pretty thorough and extensive to me but i keep thinking theres still bad cells there

[Sans911]

@outlander thanks hun. It's nice to know that what I say helps. It doesn't always feel like with with everyone. I think your just over worrying about your BCC, and that's normal. They would have taken extra skin to ensure they got it all. Of course, you'll need check ups in future, but you've done everything right until this point. Easier said than done, stop trying to worry about it.

Have you got some things to do today for distraction?

[outlander]

It does help. You help. @Sans911 ❤
They got good margins. Which im happy about. Just worried i suppose.
I went o the horses today. Didn't enjoy it but went for sisters. Ive just been catching up on study. About to do the final assessment in a sec.
The days gone quite quick which is good.
My youngest sister wants to paint my nails so ill let her do that. Not to bothered as ive got nail polish remover which i always need lol. Other than that nothing else. Just watching some movies.

[outlander]

Um.... shite

[outlander]

I think i need to go to the drs

[outlander]

Crap crap crap

[Sans911]

@outlander what's going on?

[outlander]

i checked in the mirror theres blood covering a section of thr padding.
Its not just a little bit it looks alot @Sans911 im waiting at drs now they are just going to put me in treatment room for nurse to check

[Former-Member]

I'm sure it's nothing @outlander

[Sans911]

@outlander it's probably from moving or friction. Try not to worry too much. I'm logging off for a bit to go for a walk. Catch up with you later today