Mental Health Carer Forum

Hi @Appleblossom,

Thankyou for your reply 😊 

I didn't really think to much about my user name  just I have insomnia and I like the term Twilight. But like like your take on it.

I've had a lot of down/hard days lately and writing helps me I don't personally think that what I write is poetry considering what I got taught at school about poetry I kinda hated that aspect of English class

But I just write the way I think and feel at the time.

When I talk about losing touch with reality I'm referring to my DID, I spend a lot of time internally letting other alters run the show because it's easier but the more I shift back the harder it is for me to come back forward.

I find it scary when I get comfortable with the darkness because as weird as it sounds at least I know what to expect it's just that constantly being in a dark place mentally is draining and takes its toll. 

But I'm not completely alone I have my hubby and son and other support people. But I find that I have trouble relying on other's to help especially with the way I grew up as I was the one everyone else relied on and now I cant help them the way I used to because I need help and I've ignored or pushed my needs away for a long time. But some of them dont seem to care.

Anyway I'm babbling now but thankyou and hope you are doing well