Mental Health Carer Forum

Hi Aonaran

I hear you, I have been on medication since I can remember for a number of things and doctors/professionals are not gods and then you get let down and you get back up and do it again and again, and again and then start doubting yourself and then who do you trust!!! Fear sets in and then isolation and before you know it you are deep in a pit!  That is me with all my shoulds.

I have got off my medication a number of times hoping that I was strong enough to carry through and be as normal ordinary as I can be like the others around me, I have build up supports but they move on or something happens that makes life difficult to keep in contact.  I have recently tried another medication after 15 years that didn't work for me and it puts such a hold on life that you don't know if you can be normal again. Its torture!! 

This is also my first time blogging too,  I have never done it before.  

I hope that when my medication kicks in that it is what I am waiting for so as not to be disappointed so as I can move forward and stop setting myself up for failure.  I am not used to waiting around but thats how I am dealing with it this time around.  I ask everyone, is this ok?  what should I be doing? I don't want to be in this state another 5 weeks and having to pick up the pieces again. 

I hear you Aonaran...

Roo