Hey
@Blep, thankyou for your ideas and kindness. I appreciate the suggestion of Spotify. I think that I was just sick, sad, frustrated and angry and really needed to tell someone. I have no friends or family and support workers are only there during certain times, if they aren't in meetings or talking to other clients. Later that night here in Australia, when the new day dawned in the USA, iTunes opened up again and I was able to buy the music that I wanted. I did want specific things and my taste at the moment is for the quite bizarre and obscure. For example I was keen for some Cabaret Voltaire, which I enjoyed listening to today with headphones while sitting in the sun. I think that Cabaret Voltaire would have to be an acquired taste. Quite strange noises recorded electronically and distorted and manipulated to make a kind "tune". Not like relaxing kinds of electronic tunes, it is more jarring and intrusive, but exciting. Unfortunately the popular stuff just doesn't do it for me. I wish, in a lot of ways, that my taste was more conservative so that I fit in more easily, especially in this backward town. But good news for me, I am feeling a little less flu-like today and so must be on the mend. I will take it easy for a few more days though, to be sure. I was also having trouble sleeping (that makes me irritable) and had terrible headaches. I worked out that it was medication that I was changing to. So I stopped that, and went back to the old stuff. Had a better night's sleep and headache much better today. I am much less grumpy now. Thankyou again.
