RE: Darkness surrounds me

[marchhare]

thanks Nell23. i will keep an eye out for it

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Former-Member I hope you have managed to doze off.

I am feeling pretty much like you are describing.Its 4.45 am

I phoned CATT team and had they called me back and I had 15 mins of a good conversation but he kept bringing up the time.  For me it was important to reach out discuss something that was on my mind. Period.  To have a human answer.  I dont keep my laptop near my bed as that would be a recipe for disaster, I am getting cold so I will try sleeping again.

Just saying hi.

Take care

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Appleblossom still here and trying to get through the night. I think I dozed for about half an hour but that is all. Glad you reached out for some help. I emailed but didn't get a reply. It's just been me and my thoughts all night. It got not great at one stage so just stood in my sons room watching him sleep. I still can't find any light and now am just running on empty now. And all morning does is bring another day from hell.

[marchhare]

Hi Nell23, it is Marchhare here. I have kept an eye out for your email but it has not come through yet. I am sorry about that.

[Former-Member]

I just sent another one through @marchhare. Hopefully this one has gone through

[Former-Member]

I got a reply email saying it went through.

[marchhare]

Righto I will keep an eye out for it. If i finish before it comes through i will pass on a message to the morning moderators to respond to it. Take care

[Appleblossom]

Hi I am back @Former-Member

I think a lot of mothers find themselves looking at their children at times when they are asleep. I do the look for the rising chest and listen the breath.

Yes it can be a sign we are well past our wits end .. for whatever reason.  Its also a sign of love.

I am in hell too at the moment.  I am agitated and jumped out of bed and found myself running 20 metres down the corridor before I stopped and realised it.  SO I took another to help.  I need to learn more about responsible med adjustment so that I can manage my symptoms. I have been under medicated all my life if I think about it.

Part of me is celebrating tho. i really never thought I would make it til my baby was 25, but it happened.

I reread your opening posts again, cos my minds a bit flakey atm.

It is sad that there are so many kids with troubles and caring teachers are worth their weight in GOLD.  It is very tragic when a young person takes their life.  I have been buffetted by that one a few times, but still here.

Caring for you seems to be priority now.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Appleblossom, sorry to hear you are struggling too. My children do keep me going through all of this. When I get to that point, like last night, it helps just to watch them and fight through all of this for them.

Giving you lots of hugs and hope you have a good day 

[Former-Member]

Thanks, maybe I am not doing it right. I just clicked on the chat offline button and sent an email that way. Is that right?