Paranoia is killing my life

[Tanker]

For the longest time I thought paranoia was normal. Until one day it became to much and I let lose. 

Years later I am in a new relationship and she is getting sick of me thinking she is cheating endlessly.

But the biggest part about this... I love her. But I am starting to feel as though she is just lying. This has been going on for years.

Now she saying she is done... But when you feel like you need someone but hate them for lying it keeps you in a endless circle of fighting with your mind. I mean endless....

How do I stop this. Please someone anyone... Help me. It is 2:04 am. Because I cannot sleep as my brain won't shut up and leave me alone.

[NiteKat]

Thanks for connecting to the forum Tanker. It can be a good place to interact and tap into the experiences and wisdom of the members. You're having a rough night. Things are often quiet here overnight but Im sure people will respond a little later.

NiteKat (overnight moderator)

[Everan]

It must be hard to live with paranoia @Tanker. 

I am not sure i can help that's why i haven't replied. I know that i fear connecting with people. I can only say strategies that have helped for me. I have found listening to eckhart tolle helps ease the mind on the internet. I bought his music and found one song really helps calm the mind. Every night i listen to a body scan meditation to prepare you for sleep on the smiling minds app. If it helps to think about the thought process.

I hope you can find ways that work for you to stop thinking about it. If it helps to talk about it here.

[Tanker]

I trying it right now. because right now I am having a paranoida attack.
So I need something to help!

[Everan]

Hi @Tanker,

The urgent assistant numbers are there if you need it on this webpage.

And you can also do webchat with SANE on top right hand corner to help direct you to the right service or call them.

This may help you find what your after right now. 

I hope it works.

[Tanker]

@Everan thank you thank you very much. I I cannot say thank you enoug. Eckhart is what I needed or should say still following. You see I am at the point where I am sick of suffering this is why I came here. You really did help me so much. I am still leaning to leave my pain body. Thank you for showing me how. ❤️ thank you again

[Everan]

I am glad you are going okay @Tanker . It is good to find some knowledge in your learning. I have been looking up the dalailama website for wisdom. This has really helped settle down my thoughts and begin to find inner peace. It helps to grow a little bit each day. I hope you find a way forward in your journey. 

I am grateful for your words of thanks. It is overwhelming. I have lots to work on with similar issues too.