My partner and I have been together for 5 months, however over the last 2 months our sex life has come to a complete hault. <br><br>I believe it's important to note a few bits of information:<br>- I am 29, he is 19.<br>- We have both recently Identified that we were addicted to Marijuana useage and have been clean for 4-5 weeks.<br>- Over the past 2 months, I have been experiencing Anxiety and depression.(surrounding lack of intimacy, however I understand that correlation does not equal causation)<br>- I relocated from Brisbane, to Melbourne so be with him, leaving behind a support networt of Friends & Family.<br><br>Three days ago, we had an open and honest discussion regarding his lack of interest in sexual intimacy which led to him expressing doubts that he may think that he is not gay.<br><br>This situation induced severe Anxiety and feelings of worthlessness on my behalf. Our discussion led to a verbal disagreement and saw us sleep in seperate rooms of the house.<br><br>The following day, I awoke from a dream in which my partner commited suicide, which woke me up and induced, by far, the most intense Panic/Anxiety Attack that I have ever experienced. My partner had left the house for the day, however I call him and he returned home midway through my Panci Attack.<br><br>During this time, he was cold and passive-aggressive towards me. I was physically upset to the point of vomitting. It was at this stage where he took it upon himself to leave the house again. <br><br>My Attack became more violent and I began to have suicidal thoughts. I felt alone, and isolated. It was at this time that I had a genuine fear for my life.<br><br>Having unsuccessfully attempted in 2010, I knew that I was at high risk. Feeling I had no options, I contacted the Police. Eventually, my partner came home and an Ambulance was called and I was transported to Hospital.<br><br>I was seen by someone from psychiatric triage and underwent an evaluation. In the coming weeks, I am to begin a course of Anti-depressants, as well as a Mental Health Care Plan. <br><br>While I am keen to begin working on myself, I still feel that the underlying issues My partner and I are having, regarding intimacy, also need to be addressed. I'm not sure what to do.<br><br>I love him so fiercely, and the fear of losing him plays on my mind a lot. He has verbally reassured me that he loves me and wants to be with me, however the lack of any intimacy and physical contact continually perpetuates my feelings of worthlessness. I can not seem to shake the feelings that I my gender may be the issue, but that he's forcing himself to be with me, out of pity.<br><br>I don't want him to feel obligated to be intimate with me, however it has affected me in such a way that I feel that that is exactly how he feels. <br><br>Am I going crazy? I have nowhere to turn and have no idea where to start to try and fix this... and I can not help but feel like a burden.
