First day sober in 15 days..

[Lilyq]

So I have been drinking a lot lately. A real lot. I have decided to drastically reduce my drinking only problem is I really feel like a drink. I miss the feeling of being intoxicated with wine or cocktails. I have schizoeffective disorder and the Alcohol seems to take the edge off and make me feel better only problem is I know in the long run its not doing me any good. 

I also need more and more alcohol to take the edge off, then I feel bad the next day so I have a drink to feel better, the cycle starts again. I don't want to die of an alcohol related disease only problem is I hate being sober. Help me please..

[Appleblossom]

piece of fruit ... ??

Not sure what to say but after a while the negative effects certainly are worse that the light and bubbly stage of early intoxication.  I guess you ahve to keep telling yourself that and find other things to distract.

I was at a party last night and only drank water. Great to say I was not the only one.  A few other ladies were refusing the champagne and we talked about responsible driving.  I had an illness early in life which meant I could not start drinking.

Take Care

[greenpea]

@Lilyq Hi Lilyq yes it has been about 4 years almost since I have stopped drinking and I have to say that I still miss it ... but feel better without it go figure. It is the initial smoothness down the throat and the soothing of the mind that I miss but I cannot stop at one I have two or three by which point that is way too much and I feel like crap. So best not to have anything.

Stick with it. You will be better off without it I can assure you. Love greenpea xxxx

[Lilyq]

Thanks for your support @Appleblossom @greenpea it's hard but I hope to do it. My plan is to only drink once a month and not to excess, I hope I can manage it. 

[greenpea]

@Lilyq You have our absolute support. You can do this Lilyq 🙂 xxxx

[Appleblossom]

Great plan @Lilyq

If you read other posts you will see that I am not always a goody 2 shoes.

Being hung over is awful. Keep remembering that.

A spluge a month is fair. 

Take Care

[TAB]

I am lucky to have 2 sober days a week atm @Lilyq I am not ok with that . I didn’t drink yesterday. Going to try for a few days in a row later in week. Not trying to rationalise it and cant afford it either but guess its only time I feel ok these days. It kills days, makes excuses, self justifies etc but still keep going back. One Day. Hope your plan works.

[Former-Member]

You are drinking because you are unable to deal with life on its own terms and you see drinking as a solution rather than a problem for your issues.

If this has been a constant issue in your life then you should consider educating yourself on alcohol addiction and see whether or not a support group or a discussion with your therapist is a good option.

I must tell you that I have been in your situation before with other substances and was using them to mask my mental illness. I haven't touched a drink or a drug in six months and it is possible to abstain from it. It is utter insanity at this point in time to say 'I'll just drink once in a week or so' 

You are planning and obsessing over alcohol which is unhealthy. Please speak to someone and abstain from Alcohol for the time being, it is not a solution to your problems it will only make thigns worse as you have acknowledged.

[Lilyq]

Thanks @TAB  for understanding the situation I hope you can manage more than a few days sober.

Thanks @Former-Member for the support, I do feel like I can beat this alcohol addiction as I go for my 2nd day sober, I don't feel the need to abstain completely although you may disagree.

[TAB]

I don’t disagree just depends how strong you can be . Anyway every day you dont drink at all ie in a row you feel differently. 15days a hard slog. Prob done it a few times this year. @Nay69 ? @utopia