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[Former-Member]

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[hiddenite]

Hi Seuss

It just goes to show everyone has a story to tell. Thank you for sharing. I don't feel so alone knowing that others actually do understand. 

I'm also sorry you have had to suffer.

No I've never had any support from dv.

What you have written makes so much sense to me.

Thank you for sharing some of your story with me.

[hiddenite]

Hi Rick

You write with such clarity of mind something I don't have at the moment. I really don't feel well enough to make any decisions. 

I feel backed into a corner without options and the clarity to find a way out. You certainly explain so well what I am experiencing. Acute doesn't even come close to how unwell I am.

The PARC program is not an option for me I saw the gp today and asked.

Your words are so kind when I feel so hopeless and overwhelmed thank you.

You have been through so much I hope you are supported and cared for.

I appreciate you taking the time to help me.

Take care

[CherryBomb]

Hi @hiddenite 

What did you get up today? Glad to see you on here again. 

[hiddenite]

Hi Cherry Bomb

Saw gp who says that the MHU is the only option.

Walked 10 km

CAT team rang to say I have to be assessed

All downhill from there, rest of the day in car acute anxiety, went bush, darkness.

I have wrapped myself in a really soft blanket sitting on my bed, trying to comfort myself.... Overwhelmed and distressed.

The eating thing didn't go well.

Still no posative.

I hope your day was productive and a good one

[hiddenite]

Oh I did drive to the ED but couldn't go in. Couldn't even get out of the car...   I'm sorry I don't even have the words for how awfully dark I feel....

[CherryBomb]

Hiddenite, I think it's great that you went for a walk, and that you went to see your GP. 

I want to echo @Rick 's words:

"please Hiddenight consider the support that a mental health unit would provide. And cut yourself a little slack. Even the toughest of survivors need to rest and recuperate."

It's important to get the support and assessed. 

You got the support of us behind you. 

[hiddenite]

It's just that I am unable to go to strange places. If a door is closed I cannot open it.

If there is a man in the waiting room I will trigger...have to leave..... Then if I get through that there is a good chance that I won't even be able to speak.

I know it sounds so stupid but that is what life is for me. 

Panic, anxiety, flashbacks, triggers.... If I don't go they will call the police.

Its too much for me to manage..... I can't do it.

I don't know what to do.....

[Alessandra1992]

Sometimes @hiddenite, accepting help is our only active choice.. The choice is still yours to make...and perhaps if you talk to the CATT team, or your gp you may be able to explain why you can't go into an mhu without some support.
..it must be so very difficult with your parents not supporting you.
Are there any other family members or friends who might be able to support you?
@Former-Member has some good strategies that might help..you are worth it, you deserve to nourish yourself because you are valuable and precious...

[hiddenite]

HI Sandy

No its up to me no other support.

Last time I spent 4 hours alone in the ED before someone saw me. Its so difficult managing all this without support, knowing that I cannot trust my decisions.

Hope you are doing well