Anxiety is hight

[BlueBay]

If I did @tyme I would be able to do what I want 

eat what snd when I want 

no anxiety about being intimate etc

no pressure 

but at the same time I would be lonely and alone 

we’ve been married 38 years and I’ve noticed since kids leaving that there’s more pressure (my mind feel this) for me. (does that make sense). 
snd if I did leave - it would all my fault. 
our communication is not good. Very basic communication. 

this is why I LOVE when I go into hospital for a break or meds change.  Because I can just be me. No anticipation to do anything. 

he also can’t handle my emotions. Hates when I cry. So now I don’t until he’s out or at work all day. 

it gets very exhausting for me. 

[BlueBay]

In hospital with severe abdo pain 

not sure if it’s diverticulitis or a blockage 

@tyme @Jynx @Jynx @Shaz51 @Eve7 @Snowie 

[Snowie]

oh @BlueBay I'm so sorry.

It sounds like you are in the best place at the moment. I hope they are able to get to the bottom of the pain.

We are here with you 💕

[Shaz51]

Ohh sorry @BlueBay , hope you feel better soon 🥰

[tyme]

Oh dear @BlueBay , doesn't end, does it? Stress related?

[Eve7]

That’s no good @BlueBay I hope they can figure it out and treat you.

🩵🩵

[Jynx]

Aww @BlueBay that's so rough hun! 🥺

Sending some hugs 🫂🫂

[BlueBay]

Hi everyone @Jynx @Eve7 @tyme @Shaz51 @Snowie 

after 7 hours in hospital; tests and high strength pain reliever I was discharged. I am no better than before. 
I felt the Dr didn’t truly believe me.  I feel like because of my mental health they think it’s made up. 
they sent me home with no script and said just take very basic pain med. 

that won’t help. 

I was crying after the Dr left. I was upset and angry and in pain.  Asked the Dr what else can be done and she replied there is nothing else. Didn’t even say “go to see your gastroenterologist “

im now home don’t feel like eating dinner so I had toast.  

don’t know what to do. 

[tyme]

I'm sorry you didn't feel acknowledged or heard @BlueBay . It must be so hard.

Are you able to have a little rest?

[BlueBay]

Hey @tyme 

I’m resting now on the couch. 
hope the pain eases tonight.