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[Former-Member]

Hope you can go forward too @TAB 😊
It's very annoying when you just want to move forward and thoughts try to hinder. 😨😯

Felt like a heater was on when I went out to take girl to school.

Going to try and nap now. Hope I can.

Enjoy your day. 🐱

[TAB]

yeah, for me sometimes things just click, other times have to talk self into things, other other times lol just throw hands up and take time out .. guess it's about the length and severity of the 'timeouts' and the rest of it .. @Former-Member yeah, was up couple hrs later than normal for walk today, so had sun and flies, was cooking re body by time I got back, so it must have done some good  hope you have a good day too .. have you thought about trying another psych?..

[Former-Member]

Yes agree @Former-Member...a black dog biting my heels again.
I'd ran from it, but pull a few sleepless nights in front of me, on the descend I go.
What's worse is to try & explain to a partner who asks what's wrong?
If I'm always having to explain, why not see wounds and understand?
It's not a fixable overnight thing.
I hope service guy returns tomorrow so I can rest.
I feel a lousy mother of late.

My answer is to just tune out...so agree we need more sleep. And if it's odd hours, odd hours it'll be.
Everyone wants something endlessly.
I've kept afloat with social scene, now it's caving time...
I find reason, trust...surpass me..I just wish to go home.
But where's home?
...so it's fifteen feet of pure white snow....save yourself he says!
Sleep I will get later..the rest is too much to comprehend.

[TAB]

..service guy ?? @Former-Member  coffee's on here. Warm.

[Former-Member]

Yeh, heater stuffed.
Rest a bit, didn't sleep. S3 wouldn't sleep, so let him be feral.
Had to shift dark mood..thanks for coffee offer.
Realize I'm feeling resentment for being hurt, angry at what I've allowed to happen.
@TAB...
Now he needs sleep. Holy moly!

[Former-Member]

Some "stuff" is hard to comprehend @Former-Member 😢😯😮😣😨 Feeling resentful and hurt from things that have happened is normal and good you're acknowledging these feelings. These feelings will pass Fadin. Hard, I know. xo Try to sleep when your boy sleeps, even if it's brief. 😴
I often wonder if I'll ever get better. It's so very frustrating and hard, going forward, then going backwards again. We will win though. We are fighters "winners". 😀💪
I AM OVER IT ALL. 😨😠😢

No more psychologists for me @TAB 🐱
Have seen quite a few, one helped a little, the rest didn't. Can't be bothered saying same story to another one. They all go over the same things, eg: are you sleeping, eating well? Relaxation?? Etc........... Counselling wuth counsellirs helped years ago, but O think they've done all they can. Now it's up to me, I guess 😯😮😣😨😂

I need a really strong coffee, thanks 😊 ☕

[TAB]

Being hurt? What happened plus are u Leia nod for yes lol 😜

[TAB]

Ho k.. Well give self treats and stop talking crap to self lol 😜 A new pastime/hobby/change maybe??
Coffees up☕️

[TAB]

@Former-Member ? ..coffee's up ..again..