How did you get through Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and or Depression and Panic Disorder?

[cloudy2019]

Hello, Is there anyone else suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder that has affected their abiltity to work, function and socialise.

It is very lonely at times and isolating. I feel like my sense of self has been shattered and I am trying to put back a puzzle that has been blown apart into a million pieces.

I feel strong disassociation symptoms. I am seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist.

I still feel alone though and was wondering if anyone else is going through the same or how did you get through it?

[outlander]

hi @cloudy2019
im sorry there hasnt been a response here as yet. i have ptsd, depression and anxiety amongst others so i can relate to how your feeling.
how have you been since this post? happy to chat to you about anything you need

[Serenity1]

@cloudy2019 hello-yes I am suffering C-PTSD , agoraphobia, severe anxiety & depression due to being raised in an abusive, toxic & neglectful family environment that was narcissitic family unit-
It is extremely difficult & the only thing keeping me going is my daughter- i can completely relate 💖

[Ali11]

We're sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time @cloudy2019, do you have a good support network outside of your psychiatrist and psychologist to be able to talk to?

[May23]

Hi @cloudy2019 

I can completely relate to your post. While I have dealt with the original incident that led to my PTSD the overall affect on my mental health is ongoing. I also suffer anxiety, depression and adjustment disorder. I can be in a room full of people and still feel completely isolated and alone. Work was always my way to distract myself from my own negative thoughts and feelings at least while at work anyway. A year ago I had an accident at work that has left me physically injured awaiting surgeries. I was forced back to work and bullied into pushing my body too hard too soon. This resulted in worsening not only my physical injuries but also destroyed my mental health. I was left feeling hopeless, worthless and like a burden on all those around me. My solution was to remove myself from the situation. I closed myself off from everyone and even attempted suicide. I am currently fighting for unfair dismissal as I was fired for being injured even though the injury was caused by the workplaces negligence. I am also fighting the insurance company who claim I'm not injured and it's all in my head to get my medical expenses covered. 

I am a qualified chef who may never return to her dream career due to other people's actions and I'm expected to just suck it up and move on. Being a chef has always been way more than a job to me. It's a big part of who I am as a person and now I have no idea what I'm supposed to do now that's been taken away from me. Who am I now?? 

It is all so overwhelming most of the time. My PTSD has had the consequence of severe trust issues with myself and others. I have been off work since new years as a result. I don't feel safe outside my house. Since I started seeing my current psychologist I have been able to force myself to leave the house for reasons other than medical appointments. I still only go to places I've been before and don't stay as long as I would have in the past but it's a work in progress. I have learnt ways to cope with my symptoms and reactions but have accepted that my life is always going to include mental health issues. I struggle daily and sometimes feel like I'm living for others not myself but I'm still alive. 

Meditation is now a big part of my life. I suffer from excruciating physical pain which triggers my anxiety and simply focusing on my breathing can be a lifesaver especially out in public. I know I need to learn to trust people in order to return to the workforce but at this stage that feels a long way off. 

I am here if you wish to talk more.

[Floss1]

Not a helpful reply but I really love the way you described how it feels. I have a lot of trouble with that. "Pixilated Brain" and "Bashed up inside" are a couple of descriptions I have used.

[Former-Member]

Hi @cloudy2019 , sorry I'm just seeing your post now.

I have PTSD yes, aswell as depression, anxiety, etc.

For me, it's extremely hard. I try my best to avoid people, places, words, etc. that remind me of triggering times. For example, school. It's hard though.

I also have flashbacks (during the day but at night mostly, like videos), and I have nightmares. It's hard for me to cope. They're scary and they leave me feeling numb and like I can't move, especially when I have nightmares.

I wish I knew a therapy and could get one for PTSD, I don't know of any. Best of luck, I hope you're ok