Taking the plunge

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  Wow, that’s is a splash of colour. Really love the colours. LEGO looks good too.

I’ve just read through last night. It’s rough. We all know it’s unpredictable, strange, weird, but it’s the moment to moment, day after day stuff. The never ending ness of it all. A small house becoming school, with no respite in sight . I really am so sorry. I so wish there was more I could say or do. But, listening and really hearing the hardness of it all. Sending 💛💛💛💛

I had a picture in my mind of you receiving school instructors through a locked gate. It’s bonkers for sure.

Today ..... I don’t know what to say. School at home, challenges.... It’s really is tiny tiny steps, one at a time.

There was a bit of colour for me yesterday, but back in the bowling ally . There’s always someone or something, more than Willing to knock 10 down every time.

My first ☕️☕️ Is long gone. Heading to the kettle for a second now. Leaving one here for you later. 💜💜💜💕💕💕💕

@outlander  Sorry it’s tough for you also. You are so grown up, with responsibilities beyond your years. A strange thing to say maybe. Sending lots of 💙💙💙💙💙

@TheVorticon  Lots of 💜💙💕💕💕

@eth @Appleblossom  and anyone else reading. 💕💜💙

[CheerBear]

Morning @Maggie. I'm heading to the kettle - how's your cup?

Thanks for listening. It's so :pile_of_poo: but it is what it is. We're all in the same boat.

I've flagged Little as the one who might have the trickiest time today. I will have to make it fun and engaging for them to do anything I think. We'll see.

I'm sorry you were knocked down yesterday. What happened (if you'd like to share)?

How is your day looking today?

[Maggie]

My cup is ready for another @CheerBear , but I will leave it until later. I’m back in the habit of kick starting with coffee. 😕😕😕

It will be tricky with little @CheerBear, not really  ( maybe wrong ) understanding the situation. The fun ness wears off. Listening to the :pile_of_poo::pile_of_poo: If it turns to that.

With me it’s the recent that keeps appearing with , scapegoat plus . I don’t like what I feel towards another person, that then becomes people. Obvious signposts being ignored. I know lots and lots of others are feeling the same, and worse. Back to powerless feeling. I was talking to counsellor yesterday. The last lines of the song ‘ Starry, starry night ‘ are ringing true for me. “ They would not listen. They’re not listening still. Perhaps they never will.” Sigh.

Anyway.....one foot in front of the other. I still haven’t got to the IGA store, maybe today.

[Maggie]

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[CheerBear]

That's some self-restraint @Maggie, leaving your cup empty even though you're ready for another.

I don't know how I am going to keep them engaged and learning. They're at a boundary pushing age and they think they know everything already. I feel overwhelmed. Like most other parents I imagine.

I am sorry you are feeling the powerlessness feels. Not being listened to feels :pile_of_poo:. It makes the 'I don't matters' happen. I can imagine how yuck it would be for you to have the feeling towards another become feelings towards others. Hard stuff 🙁

Have you heard from bro?

I hope you get to IGA if you need to.

Something happened here last night that is laughable considering the day we have today and something I wrote about here yesterday. A big window in the lounge room broke. Not the glass but the frame. It is one that slides down and now can not slide back up so it is stuck wide open. It needs fixing asap as it's getting really cold at night time and the little house can't have it open without it freezing everywhere. So today is real estate and owner, and probably a couple of extra people here in our safe little bubble. House stuff has tipped me over the edge. A broken door was the trigger for the catt team to come over. I stood by the window and laughed a lot last night, refusing to let it get to me.

Anyway, today looks like fun in our house :face_with_rolling_eyes:🤯😑

[CheerBear]

😆😂 @Maggie those pics really are the story of my life. Thank you for the giggle!

[Maggie]

Oooooh @CheerBear  that’s funny, in a very not funny kind of way. 😂😂 You did well to laugh, even if the laugh was covering the scary stuff.

You really do have a day packed with full on adventure ahead.

A little who knows everything already....tricky. It reminds me of one of my internal 

s. She stood there 5 years old, fist in the air boldly announcing ‘ I will not be good’ she has proven time and time again she meant it. I’ve never got it right there. It’s not easy with a real live kid @CheerBear . 

I might ring bro later today. He hasn’t rung. I hoped he would, but it’s tough for him with supports gone. Gosh it’s tough times.

I hope you have plenty of coffee on hard @CheerBear . Does it send you I to another place. The coffee???☕️☕️☕️

[CheerBear]

At least I have an excuse today to be standoffish, unwelcoming and not talk to them more than 'here is the window. Please fix it' @Maggie 😆

That's hard with a bold, foot is down little. Do the internal ones have names? I hope that's OK to ask. There's no need to answer if you'd prefer not to.

Not hearing from bro and wondering when to contact him is tricky. He is lucky to have you thinking of him. Super hard without his usual support/s. Ugh this is all a bit rough.

A lack of coffee would send me to another place I think 😆

[Maggie]

Lol @CheerBear  “ here’s the window. Fix it. 😂😂😂😂

Yes, they ALL have names, ages, likes, dislikes, boy girl. You name we’ve got it. 😂😂😂. You just have to laugh @CheerBear . When all else fails, if you can. Laugh. Sometimes my laughter is crying, tricky .

I can’t remember being without coffee @CheerBear , it’s something I’m never without. I think it would definitely send me to another place without it. Too much has another place also. 😂😂😂

[CheerBear]

That sounds so busy inside @Maggie. I struggle with three. Can't imagine the struggle with more! I'll laugh with you, in a laugh-crying way. Life sure is interesting I guess.

😆 with the coffee. I hear ya!

I'd better get my parent-teacher hat on and wake Little. I have big words for the way I feel about today. One that starts with F stands out 🤪

I really hope there's some good in your day today. I'm keeping a low standard of 'good' today - as long as we all see the day through it will be a win here 🏅😆