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Evening @CherryBomb,

I hope your weekend has treated you kindly.

CB, I hear you clearly about not wanting to be pushed, or to venture forward before you're ready.  I really respect what you say, and think you put it incredibly well.  Thank you for summing it up so clearly.

I've been musing on your question:

I often wonder about why some people feel attached to needing to be right - what does this say about their sense of self? Could it be that their sense of self is so rocky that nothing can question it? If this is the case, how can one really better themselves if there is nothing wrong?

I think you're spot on with what you say, but I have some other thoughts on it as well.  It seems to be incredibly common on the Internet, and yes, there's the thought that people indulge themselves in incredible levels of rudeness on the Internet just because they can get away with it.  But does that really explain it?  That, given an increased chance, people will automatically act badly?  I hope not.

I'm mindful of a book by a hero of mine, the American poet Robert Bly, one of a group of men drawn to transpersonal psychology and mythopoeics who started the Men's Movement in the US.  He saw that the underlying archetpes in our society were being eroded -- in particular the Mother and Crone of the Wise Woman trinity, and the Elder Sage and Shaman from the men, and what we're largely left with are the Maiden and the Fool.  His book is called The Sibling Society, becaue he feels our society is stuck in a place of rebellion and rejection of authority, where what is manifested generally is bragging, resentment, rivalry, greediness and a kind of sullen obstinacy.  I think there's some truth to it.  Obviously it's not a sweeping reality of every single person in every instance -- these are currents he's talking about -- but it is enough to form an overall pattern.  I can certainly see it in myself (though I'm a bit inverted, so instead of being a braggart I'm more frightened and bewildered).

I think it ties in with what Anne @PeppiPatty was asking t'other day about Jung and the Collective Unconscious (I haven't forgotten you asked about that, Anne;  I hadn't said much yet because I was wondering if @CherryBomb might have some good comments to make).  It's a subject I'm very much interested in, how archetypes play out in our day-to-day.

I hope it's obvious that I'm wanting to converse, not trying to state things as "facts".  I'm very intrested to hear your thoughts, @CherryBomb, and those of anyone else who wants to jump in. 😉

Th class you did sounds very much like something I would have enjoyed.  Who was presenting it, if you're happy to share?  I used to go to a lot of experiential workshops, but I'm afraid nowdays they seem tailored (i.e. priced) towards the PODIs (Plenty Of Disposable Income).  (What, bitter?  Me?!)

Yes, I really loved "Moon".  Made me so cross! (Ha-ha!!)  Also put me in a bit of a funk for a few days, about the nature of reality, and explitation, and how far we can trust our own perceptions.  I'm having a lot of trouble these days trusting what's said to me, so there was a fair bit of sediment in the stream.

Brrr, where I'm at has turned cold again lately -- Winter seems to have come back for one last bite -- and I've pulled an all-nighter again.  I seem to not want to go to sleep in case I miss something, though I haven't a clue what that "something" might be ...  but it means I'm zonked out now, so apologies if I'm not making much sense, and I want to say something but can't quite work out what it is, and i really should turn the heater off (electricity bills!  aagghhhh!!!) and go to bed.

I'll come back to this, and try to make some sense next time round.

'Night all,

Aonaran

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I hope you dont mind if I partake of conversation between you and CherryBomb. I like the tone of discussion on this thread. I am a personwho has had very few  boundaries and am trying to teach myself about them late in life. Here goes.

I have a book of poems called Edge Effect: Trails and Portrayals. It is based on the biological concept of the Littoral Zone, eg coastal sea/land habitats and ecologies.

I dont tend to like straight lines and have jumbled, overgrown garden. My pictures are on the walls in uneven clusters. They average out with some sense of balance .. but I do NOT measure it .. it just needs to be pleasing to the eye ... MY eye. 

I have cared for plants outside my property line, (to the ridicule of some people in my street, who say I am doing the council's work, but mostly I get respect).There is a cyclone wire fence near my house. Often canola plants are self seeding there ... so I have a new boundary ... Monsanto rubbish can stay the other side of the fence. It is easier to manage when there are clear boundaries. We can become automatic in our responses etc. It can be time saving .. if they are accurately labelled. 

I guess socially often boundaries can be like assumptions.  I tend to be wary of people who pride their intuition, as they dont often actually try and reality check and find out about the other person but often like to prove their ideas about others being right.  It makes it hard for someone like me on the edge to move in from the margins. In some ways I am now used to being there. I see myself as a critter of the Littoral Zone. Always trying to fit in ... on the edge .. so I guess I understand boundaries differently. I just dont take for granted the same that things that many people do. I have always been willing to learn, unfotunately not everybody shares that trait with me.

I learned "readiness" concepts in piano teacher training and preparing students to play duets.  It is quite artificial in many ways, and a lot of effort, awareness and money is used to encourage the lucky student to be aware and be able to choose and tune in and play with another well. It can be good as it teaches the new generation better awareness skills than earlier generations but we do need to be aware of evolution in standards of living. I have rarely been "ready" for what life gave me. It has usually been a matter of rising to the occasion and sinking as often as I swim. I may be ready for a performance or not .. music is an area where hitting the right note is typically a matter of great pride ...

I havent read Robert Bly but he sounds interesting and the concept of a 'sibling society' revealing. We cram 30 children of the same age in a classroom for 12 years and presume they will get along and it gives accurate insight into normal milestones ..... what about the multiage societies of village cultures ... I think writers that encourage Americans to view their society as one (or a set of cultures) among many are important.  They werent ready for 9/11 despite all their expertise or intelligence ..  theoretical or security.

I read a bit oif The Golden Bough and comparative religions and I found it interesting that Robert Bly's website mentioned him as a man trying to write about religion when the world is turning away from religion. 

My interest in religion is why .. why people believe anything .. how trust or faith are developed .. or its converse. What are the assumptions ... it doesnt mean I dont have beliefs but I am careful about them.

Sorry for ramble ...

 

 

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Love this @Appleblossom
Love the connection to boundaries and nature

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Gooday all,

I'm sitting in court waiting for the next step to happen....... For it to go to court to trial

And he's making me look very bad with the magistrate. The magistrate has already told us that we are wasting his time ......I just want this over but now the stalker wants little bits and pieces he has said I have offered him in the past.
The thing I've got to remember is that not to look a victim. I tend. I let things ride and I need to interrupt and say no this is not true

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Oh my gosh, @PeppiPatty Anne, I had no idea all this was happening for you.

I'm sending sincere best wishes and all good vibes in your direction.

Hang in there, kiddo!

Aonaran

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Dear @apmaran
The court case was dismissed. I'm So sad. The support letters meant zilch to him.

The magistrate told me that he's not convinced that he's a danger and now that he has said he will leave me alone he will

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@shenightowl wrote:

Hi there,

I am new here myself and can very much relate to your words.  I also have made bad choices due to anxiety and depression and worst of all was devastated by immense feelings if SHAME>  only since i came down with a severe illnes in the past two months i was able to reflect how I have been so  self critical, pushing myself to the limits to keep working when I could barely function. 

I know how difficult it is to trust others, but I really understand now that I need support.  Maybe for yourself,just by posting on the forums and interacting with others you may find some comfort.

Sending you best wishes..I feel for you and hope you find someone you can reach out to.  We are all on here because of our suffering. take care


Dear @shenightowl,

This is a lovely message, and I'm so sorry it didn't get replied to.  I think it got lost in the page turns, which is a pity.

Yeah, shame is such a trap, and it's a killer.  I personally think we need to talk about it more, be more upfront about it in society in general, if only to dispel its grip, but we don't ... why?  We're all so determined to look like we've got everything handled, while our unspoken shame is limiting our lives and making us hurt each other in both body and spirit.

And I'm very interested about the relationship  between emotional states and physical illness.  If you have knowledge of this, I'd love to hear more.

You're right about the effect of posting, I think.  Speaking for myself (and I imagine others feel similarly), it does give me comfort and a sense of contact.  And I know I talk about myself a lot, but it's the only thing I know (Hah! assumptions alert!), and I post it in the hope others will respond and talk about their own experiences.  That's how I learn, and expand my awareness.

I'm sorry to hear you've been ill, @shenightowl. I hope things are on the mend.

And I hope you'll post some more, and share more about yourself.

Kind regards,

Aonaran

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@Aonaran
@shenightowl

I've put the Robert Bly book in my Booko list to get. The book reads like one I want to read !

Yes well, @Aonaran you have written another message that I reread .....
I can relate to what you have written about shame ......
Please write more
I'm not making sensible responses but am reading posts
Anne

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I hope you find it interesting, @PeppiPatty !

I'd be interested in hearing what you think.

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Hmm, a bit shy about saying this, but:

Folks, if you raise a glass sometime today (don't care what it is -- chablis, chinese tea, chicory or cough syrup), please spare a quick thought for me -- it's my birthday!  😉