Sexual assault trigger

[Evie1]

I need to understand myself better what's a victim I don't enjoy healthy human behaviour and I don't understand my trigger 

[outlander]

hello @Evie1
i have been through sexual abuse and am happy to chat about any concerns you might have.

would you like to talk more about what the trigger is?

i also dont like to think of people who have been sexually assaulted or abused as a victim, i like to think of it as a survivor.

[Evie1]

I gad sex with my boyfriend I wanna enjoy with him not feel hurt

[outlander]

Thats tough @Evie1
Some things you could try are:
-different positions to see if that helps
-extra lubrication
-be gentle and slow
-practicing relaxation exercises daily to help your body just chill out and relax
-speaking with a counsellor
-you could also have a chat with a womens health/sexual health nurse. She can talk more in detail mentally ans physically to help determine what else might help. Sometimes it takes a while to feel ok within yourself to be intimate and also there are actual treatable conditions that can make sex hurt like involuntary muscle spasms down there which can be worked on to get better.