Overwhelming Grief for Bast

[TheVorticon]

I'm sorry for your loss @Bast. He sounds like a very special cat and friend. You did the right thing, the best thing for him, although that knowledge will not ease your pain in this moment. I hope tomorrow goes ok and that you find support to help with your grief and MH. Keep talking about him here if you'd like, it would be nice to hear any other stories about him that you want to share.

[CheerBear]

Sending you my thoughts @Bast

[Former-Member]

Good Morning @Bast Thinking of you

[Bast]

@Sans911 @Former-Member @CheerBear @TheVorticon @utopia @Nik Nik @Li 1

So many genuine thank yous for your kindness and support.

Bast had his funeral today, he has been buried with a favourite squeaky mouse in my rose garden. Some things are meant to be - there was one red rose to send with him.

In my heart he will always be, my Bastie boy. I know that I have been honoured to have him in my life for 8 years, just now feels like such a short time. A Bengal is an amazing cat, Bast certainly excelled.

The memories are there, I just need to take some time first. 

I know I have to simply treasure all of the moments with him, acknowedge the wonderful love we shared and somehow believe that is now safe and adored as a part of the universe and spirit world.

La miserable does not even come close to how this is for me.

The death of a furrbaby, my child is excrutiating. I am certain that somehow he kept on going for 2 months whilst so unwell as the tumour spread, I am struggling to reconcile what I could have and should have done. The only real answer is - he gave me as much time as he could.

He would lie here on my laptop, whilst I worked. My desk is just such an empty place now. In April he was completely running my home, insistant and so able to leap from the floor onto my chest and then go for a parade around my shoulders, all the while yelling and communicating.

I have to somehow be OK, I have 8 counselling sessions on Monday, I cannot allow the distress to show.

I will just have to allow the grief when I can

With many thoughts

Bastless

[Queenie]

I am sorry to hear about your beloved cat @Bast. Allow yourself time to grieve as you need to. Our animals seem to take a piece of us with them when they go, leaving just memories behind. Cling to those memories, and, in time, find a reason to smile again. 

[utopia]

@Bast. I'm sure you gave your little furbaby a wonderful send off. Work or no work, the grief will come when it comes. Maybe on Monday allocate some time to spend thinking of him. Allocate a time after work where you can focus on your memories and your grief

[MagicAnt]

@Bast, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Bast.  My tortoiseshell Magenta and ginger Pumpkin send you their hugs, purrs, and headbutt kisses.

[Bast]

@MagicAnt@Queenie@Former-Member@sans911@cheerbear@utopia@Li 1@thevorticon@Nik Nik

In memorium

[Sans911]

@Bast what a horrendous day for you today. Grief the way you need to, don't let anyone tell you different. Big, big cyber HUGS to you

[Queenie]

@Bast I forgot to mention our house cat Apricat sends her love and purrs. We got her when our old mini foxie passed away. Apricat is a lot of fun, she is an RSPCA adopted kitten, is ginger (hence the name). Just now, she looked right at me while I was typing this post.