I talk to people about the symptoms of my schizoaffective disorder if they are interested. I practically have a routine that I have memorised. But what I hardly talk about is my trauma, the reasons why many things affect me the way they do. When someone asks what the voices say, I dance around giving a direct answer, or when I get asked about the kinds of intrusive thoughts I get, I will say that I get messed up ideas, but I won't elaborate. It is a regular occurrence where I will seemingly randomly start swearing to myself, and when my housemate or friends ask what the problem is, I will say, "Nah, I am fine, nothing to worry about." Maybe it is because I think people don't want to hear me go on about that sort of thing. Or perhaps I am always trying to avoid it that even talking about it is too painful.
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