Hi Silenus...you express yourself very well. Incidentally, would you explain your avatar....
i was amused at your remorse (?) on being childless. Don't be....many of my friends have large families and. Get constant criticism and downright rudeness concerning their choice! One wonders where the country will find a new generation of tax payers, but then the majority voice is often wrong!
i live now in a rural town in New Zealand and I have discovered a happiness and contentment that has eluded me for decades. My experience of being different really kicked in around 15 yrs old and was pretty ghastly for the next 3 decades. I was almost 50 before feeling able to let go the umbilical cord to the psychiatrist who really helped me.
i found living in a smaller town has some drawbacks but a heck of a lot of pluses. You don't see the scrambling need of keeping up with the Jonses, people are more real. Fun can be free, and there is a stronger sense of community. One of my neighbours is a poet, my young lady who does some housework for me is a keen musician, the library is a hub for communal recreation, is nice and warm in winter.
i will be visiting Oz shortly and look forward to seeing the whanau, and old pals. And doing a PROPER road trip....a trip of 30 minutes here is regarded as a bit extreme, but the roads and weather help dictate that.
the lack of need to constantly measure myself with others is a wonderful thing.Every one has their cross to bear, it may not involve mental illness. I will keep my cross, as it has defined who I am. I must be okay, as I was a recipient of a number of gifts today, quite out of the blue...which was a lovely surprise. Life is good.
