If anyone has any suggestions on mh supports?

[Judymay]

Hello on June I lost my speech and functioning so have been forced to live with my mum who I love because she's the only one who I feel loves me right now but her husband doesn't want me here and I just feel like a burden and unwelcome. All my family have walked away and I just feel like I've tried everything for them to love me but no one wants to. I cry everyday and try to push away the desire to eliminate the pain by disappearing.

I have tried

-lifeline 

-beyond blue

-13yarn

-friend's

-psychologist but once a fortnight and email over an hour just feels like I'm not being heard or understood properly 

-mhcall but sadly will only refer me to the hospital that in August treated me so badly it's under investigation

-community sw but has no capacity 

i am at a loss I  can't find much value or reasoning to keep fighting and they only thing I can think of is to just take my cannabis oil so I don't have to sit in this distress and pain until help finally comes and maybe it'll be different. I honestly don't know anymore 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @Judymay 

I wanted to check in on how you're doing today and whether you're still looking for supports to connect with? I saw in another thread that you gave SANE a call but weren't able to get through as it was the weekend, if you are able I'd encourage you to reach out today, it's availalble 10am-8pm AEST during the week.

It must have taken so much strength reaching out to each of these places, though I'm hearing that you weren't able to find what you needed with any of these services. What sort of support do you feel you need at the moment?

[Judymay]

Thank you @Ru-bee 

I haven't tried again but been digging deep with myself to find the tools I need. I am just experiencing a new level of grief and loss which has been hard. I anticipated it but don't think I really knew just how challenging it was going to be. For the first time I am non verbal, wheelchair bound and very limited in independence, which is not my nature. I also am waiting for ndis to process and there isn't much support till then so the isolation and learning a new way of living is definitely a daily challenge.

thank you for reaching out