I'm baaaaack
@outlander - I'm glad that there was nothing serious going on with your wound & that it was easily fixed. I understand that you are bored, hun, but overdoing things is going to delay healing making it a longer, more boring time (Big Sis stern talking voice here). And re:your psychologicist- I get the impression from things you've said that perhaps you are expecting too much too soon. You can't undo trauma in a hurry. You do someone who 'gets' you though. And perhaps constantly changing therapists has slowed things down. What you should be doing with your therapist is defining goals, even small ones. They should be with helping you to determine these and working with you at a pace that is comfortable.
@Former-Member- sorry to hear things has gone to pot again. It's going to be one of those days you just have to life from hour to hour, or minute to minute even. I'll be around. I don't know if the Blue Knot website has any coping strategies, but it might be worth a look. And it would probably be a good idea to email your therapist with this new information. They might be able to see you earlier or add another session. It certainly sounds like you need it.
@Former-Member I know you live in a small town, that is rife with gossip, but hun, why do you let it get so under your skin? I understand it's hurtful, nobody likes hearing bad things about them, but rise above that and be better than them. You are paranoid, that has been something I've noticed from the time I known you. But not every whisper of gossip, not every glance your way, not everything is about you. Your lack of worth in yourself and your low self-esteem and confidence is messing with you and feeding you so many lies about yourself you now believe every single one of them. I think you need this job, to show yourself first and the world second that you are worthy & capable. I bet you are a really nice person with a heart of gold, but you probably don't even believe that. It makes me sad that you think so little of yourself. It would be really good mice to hear you have a reasonable day or even a good day. You deserve that too. And delete your ex from your phone, unfriend him on facebook and move on from him. Stop giving him your energy. He's not worth it. I'm not trying to be harsh with you, do I upset I'm sorry. It's just hard to hear talk so down about yourself so much. I care about as much as I would if I actually knew you.
