angry about everything

[TheVorticon]

After a particular trigger at the start of this week I've been angry about everything and feel like taking my anger out on random things. 

I'm feeling alone with everything and don't have the energy to engage with other people and their stuff or with lighthearted convos.

I would like to feel less alone but can't commit to replying here.

[holdinghope5]

Hi @TheVorticon - hearing you that there's a lot of emotion happening for you, and I can imagine it would have taken a lot of strength to reach out here tonight, when even responding feels like too much. 

The community is here for you. I am wondering what might be helpful for you in feeling less alone tonight?

[TheVorticon]

Thanks @holdinghope5 I guess just the fact that you replied is helpful.

I just need to convince myself to go to bed now for tonight.

[Elwarra]

Mate, I've been in a similar place for a while  - gosh it's frustrating draining. I found the worst thing is being self conscious that I'm angry and lone, which makes me more angry.

I caught some advice that helps me abit - that it's okay to feel how you feel, don't be upset with yourself for feeling negative emotions at this time. I'm working on this new thing of approaching my feelings with curiosity and just sitting with them for a bit - instead of being upset at myself for having them. The whole thing is strange to me but it seem's to take the edge off.

How did you pull up today mate ? 

[Bunniekins]

@TheVorticon   hey hunny its greenpea sorry to hear you are in a bad place.  i get it there was a time i also went through stages of anger now the magic purple pill has numbed that.  am here if you just need to vent am here to listen.  take care. x

[RiverSeal]

Hey @Elwarra, thanks for sharing your experiences with the community!

Sounds like you are going through a tough time at the moment and also finding ways to cope with these thoughts and feelings. It's really brave to be vulnerable with the community and also heartwarming to share your experiences with your peers.

Thanks again!

RiverSeal 

[Chasingsunsets]

Hey @TheVorticon, sorry you have been feeling angry and triggered. 

I haven’t seen you on the forum for a while however had been thinking of ya.

I am hoping today you are feeling a bit better. Definitely not alone here my friend. 
Have you still been going for bike rides?

[TheVorticon]

Thanks @Elwarra yeah for sure it's a bit of a cycle. Glad to hear that takes the edge off the feelings.
Today's been a little bit better for me.

Hi @Bunniekins I'm glad to hear from you. Nice one with the new name. Does it make things too numb or have you got it to an ok balance?

Hi @Chasingsunsets yeah mostly I just read a few posts without logging in these days. Today is a bit better thanks. Not heaps on the bike rides, mainly just to and from work.

[Bunniekins]

@TheVorticon  good question the anticonvulsant is good in the sense that i am calmer and at peace but in saying that i cant cry anymore.  i miss not being able to cry but if i had to choose between raging and being an emotional rollercoaster or being a bit numb give me numb any day. xx

[Chasingsunsets]

Hey @TheVorticon, I see! Well it’s nice to know you still screening some posts on sane😊 

Glad today has been better for ya!