I’ve been fighting the urge to party again. This will be difficult as I’m going to a concert this weekend and will be surrounded by revellers.
I opened up and told my friend that I’m going to the concert with about my dirty little secret delusion and funnily enough he completely understands. He said I needn’t feel ashamed.
@Queenie well if you think you can just go and enjoy the night out without doing damage to your bank balance then i would say go have fun! but of course it may not be that easy. your friend seems nice and he is right you should not feel ashamed, to be honest i think eveyone has some kind of being famous fantasy but i think if you have mental health issues (psychosis in particular) your brain sometimes takes that and decides to run all the way to candy land with it. i hope you are managing ok but i am sure it is hard.
My arthritis is of a type that eventually I’ll be unable to walk. I told my Mrs I’m scared I’ll lose her but she’s adamant she will stick around, even then.
I have to change my appearance again. I’m being recognised by the government scientists again. They still want to terminate the experiment my having me self terminate.
The above is a brief explanation of what my voices are telling me. I’m frightened. I can’t seem to do anything right.
I don’t want to tag people so they feel obligated to reply. It all started around 3pm this afternoon.
