I can’t cope

[tyme]

I guess there's only so much 'wall' space lol @Captain24 

It reminds me of my niece. I took her to a house warming and when she went there, she whispered "there's so many walls for hand stands!"

Once, I was angry at her (not really but I pretended I was). Then she turns to me and says "Do you want me to put a mark on your wall?"

She knows I'm a white wall fanatic and I don't let her do handstands in my house or her feet will touch the wall lol.

I'd be interested to see your wall when it's up! I'm still trying to imagine your lego space.

Also, did your bro responds yesterday?

[tyme]

She has been to Japan. She's been and lived in France. She's been to heaps more places than me. She just didn't want my niece going with me, that's all @Captain24 

I guess it's far away and she was only 7 then.

[Captain24]

I’ll try and take a photo tomorrow. It’s pretty hard. My Lego is all in a cupboard @tyme. I need to find some bookshelves. There is nowhere cheap here. Just Harvey Norman. I don’t want to pay a fortune.

My walls are white too. I’m very pedantic about them. I wouldn’t cope with handstands either! 

I get her not wanting to take her at that age. Maybe in the next few years. 

Nah.. I never heard from him. I won’t. He won’t respond. I sent him an expensive Christmas present last year and it wasn’t until I saw him in February and his girlfriend told me he got it. I mag’d so many times. I despise him. He doesn’t deserve anything. I have done so much for him in the last couple of years and can’t get a message out of him. What did I do to deserve a piece of shit brother. We were raised in the same house but are total opposites. I turned out so much nicer and more thoughtful and considerate. But too sensitive. It hurts so much the way that I get treated by them all. Why am I so different to all of them?

Sorry that was off tangent. 

[tyme]

Actually, I think that's a really valid question, "Why am i so different?" You don't realise HOW many people say that. I'm not kidding you. Then, my brain causes me to think, "If everyone (or a lot of people) ask why they are so different, does that mean we really are all different and that's okay?"

For years, kids/teens strive to be like their peers - peer pressure.

Then as adults, we look back to remember how hard we tried to be life everyone else.

I wonder if it's more about accepting who you are because, whether we like it or not, we ARE all different.

I know I was! @Captain24 

[Captain24]

That just lead to a stupid incident. I can’t believe I can let them do that to me

[tyme]

Argh.. the good old Radical Acceptance. Are you going to change him? Nope.

Is he going to change because you dislike him? Nope.

So is it worth the hurt you are feeling? Probably not.

Are you okay? @Captain24 

[Captain24]

I think I’m a good different @tyme. I just wonder how I turned out so different. It’s for the best though. While I hate myself so much I can still see it at least. 

[Captain24]

Not really @tyme 

[tyme]

Do you need help @Captain24 ?

[tyme]

I used to hate being 'different', but now, I really like my la la differences... @Captain24 Yes, I'm glad you can see you're a nice different 🙂 I can see that too.