I can’t cope

[Oaktree]

@rav3n @Captain24 

It’s mainly wood fired pizzas and pub food

[Captain24]

You sound like my psych.. feelings aren’t facts! @rav3n. It’s hard to believe though. They are controlling. 

Im watching my dogs chew on their bones and both are really happy but don’t want anything to do with me. 

Im just sitting on the lounge willing myself to just leave this world. I won’t do anything though.

Im enjoying it. A lot of bad stuff happens in a tiny little place! Typical soapy stuff. 

[Captain24]

Love pub food @Oaktree 

[Captain24]

I’m guessing that this is all my life will be. 

I guess I’ll sleep well now. Not that it matters

[rav3n]

"feelings aren't facts" exactly!! i do hear you though, it is hard to believe especially when we're already feeling low. @Captain24 but i'm here to remind you whenever you need.

them chewing away at the bone you gave them just shows how well you take care of them.

thanks for confirming your safety, i know it's not easy with those intrusive thoughts. the community is here for you, and please don't hesitate to text SCBS or LL if those thoughts feel unsafe again.

soapy stuff can be a nice lil escape!! i hate drama for myself but watching tv drama... i enjoy hehe

i'm off for tonight, please take care and reach out if you need anything 💜

[Captain24]

I want to go to sleep and not wake up. I’ve done so much self care stuff today. I’ve had a nap today. I’m doing the best I can but I still don’t want to be here. Why is everything I try not working? Why am I such a failure? Why am I so useless? I should be asleep but I’m lying in bed with all these thoughts running through my head.