I can’t cope

[Captain24]

So.. I’ve been to the post office. Got abused. Plus my f@ckwit uncle turned up. He spotted me and turned around and left. That felt good!

Ive been and voted. I’ve done some grocery shopping. 

I really need to do the lawns but I just don’t have it in me. I have no motivation and I just can’t do it. All I’m ready for is going back to bed. 

Today is a really hard, rough day. I’m not feeling very good at all. I’ve been doing okish so I don’t know what has happened last night or today. I’ve tried so hard. 

[Ru-bee]

You got abused at the post office @Captain24? 

It sounds like a crummy start to the day! But despite that you've still been out and gotten a few things ticked off. Sometimes we can't tick off all the chores and that's fine, today might be a god day to practice some more kindness towards yourself and perhaps do some things that are a bit less demanding and a bit more gentle.

You have been working so hard, and while it sucks to have a bad day just remember that you've still made all that progress, and that bad days are a part of progress too 

[Captain24]

Yes.. abused at the post office @Ru-bee. It’s pretty standard around here now.

Our town is in crisis. I got to the post office today at 8:40 it doesn’t open until 8. I had 16 people in front of me. The line is always out the door. 

The medical centres aren’t taking on any new patients. So if you move to town you can’t get a doctor. Which then puts pressure on the hospital.

The petrol prices are 20-30 cents dearer here than the towns surrounding. 

Rentals are unaffordable and we have quite a few homeless people. We also have people leaving town as they just can’t afford to live here. 

Sorry that’s my rant! 

Im going to have some lunch and then I need to find something to help me. Maybe read some more of my book. Or do some of that plywood puzzle thing. I got a Lego kit that I’d really like to start but I need the space for my sewing machine and overlocker. I need to hem my work pants but I really can’t be bothered. I’ll regret it tomorrow when I have to do them so I can wear them on Friday 

[Ru-bee]

Oh wow, sounds like tensions are pretty high for a lot of people in your town @Captain24 

I get not wanting to hem your pants, it's one of those annoying little projects that you put off for ages and then once you finally do it usually a short task. I've got a pair of pants that I need to hem but I think it'll be months of procrastinating before I actually do it.

Is that still the same cool plywood puzzle you were working on the other day? I bet they take a while to complete

[Captain24]

I hate hemming. @Ru-bee. It is definitely annoying! I’ve got 4 pairs to do. 

Yeah tensions are high. It’s not a comfortable place to live right now. 

Yeah that one. I haven’t really done any for a while. It is really time consuming and the directions are really hard to follow. You definitely need a clear head and no distractions. 

You got anything on the go? 

[Ru-bee]

Oh no, 4 pairs! That's rough @Captain24 sending you some patience and motivation to get through them

I'm learning how to make some paper baubles because I bought a real Christmas tree on the weekend and realised I had nowhere near enough decorations for it since I usually just choose a houseplant to stand in as a make-shift Christmas tree. 

It's a lot of cutting and gluing and waiting for glue to dry, but it's satisfying seeing them come together. They're like these ones:

 

[Captain24]

They look awesome. @Ru-bee. I’ve never had a real Christmas tree just the fake ones. 

It sounds like a lot of work but I’m glad you are finding it worth while. It’s always good when you can display your creativity! Show me when you’re finished if you are ok with it. 

I was just doing the wooden thing and the 2 parts won’t screw together and it’s giving me the shits! I’ll leave it until another day. Maybe I’ll be able to get it after a break. 

Yeah there’s 4 pairs. It won’t take long once I start. Maybe 30 mins. I think the worse part is trying them on and trying the measure them in my own. 

Now I’m watching some tv. 

[Captain24]

My day has gone from bad to worse. 

Im sitting here in tears eating a tub of ice cream. 

Eating ice cream brings other problems with it 

Really not feeling ok

[tyme]

Sorry to hear this @Captain24 .

I'm just hopping into a meeting, but I'll come sit with you after.

In the meantime, hang in there.

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , You around?