1st appointment with psychiatrist - what to expect?

[Former-Member]

Being alive is a good start @outlander
wouldn't it be nice if we could just go to our holiday place... start our own mental health farm on a winery and we could all just support each other! Everyone from the forum could come, we could survive on grapes and we could grow veggies..... ok back to reality. I have to get up and get ready for work now 😭

[outlander]

Yes @Former-Member that would be great
Imagine we are there now my little buddy
Always there with and for you ❣❣❣

[Former-Member]

You are very sweet. How was your day my friend @outlander?

My day was pretty busy which is good, takes my mind off things. Have to go in for another test tomorrow - this one I have to pee in a specimen container in a dark room and then they will wrap it in foil so it doesn't see the light and then put it in the freezer. Seriously who comes up with this stuff?!

[outlander]

@Former-Memberim about to reply to the hospital thread about my day but you can reply here if you like or not at all- thats fine too

oh my gosh ive never heard of that sort of test before- very strange!
We are talking about urine here for gods sake!

And you my little buddy are very sweet yourself, and kind caring, supportive, thoughtful, compassionate, and so much more the lsit would go on forever- I can keep going forever

[Former-Member]

@outlander are you ok? I feel like you have been getting lots of conflicting advice on here. I hope it's not too overwhelming. Just remember that we are all just people trying to support you whilst fighting our own demons, we aren't mental health professionals, we don't know everything about you or your family or your deepest feelings or what your are going through inside and out (although we do love you!). So take snippets of what we all say, hold on to the little things that resonate with you, and make your OWN decisions. Whatever you decide we will still support and love you. No one really comes by here much these days apart from you (you lovely, supportive human!) so I felt like I could sort of talk to you in "private". I don't want to offend anyone. I know everyone on the forum wants the absolute best for you xx

[outlander]

@Former-Member 

yeah im 'ok' i suppose. as ok as i can be in this stae of mind and distress anyway.

everything is overwhelming but i know everyone means well and i appreciate everyones advice- it usally offers different perspectives that i can run thourh in my head to see what might work best and rule things out. i often do take snippets and kinda try to make a plan on what might work, somethings i know wont work but i rle them out and try ot take all suggestions together and see what i cna come up with whih is pretty handy. so despite things being overwhelming usually after coming on here i often see a little bit through the fog of what to do next or where to go from here or how to approach certain things.

and yeah i get the 'private' bit sometmes i do the same thing as well not in a bad way but sometimes if someones opinion is better and would like to know hw to further act on it sometimes ill take the convo to a quiter thread to not offend anyone as i really truley do each and everyone on here. i wouldnt know where i would be without here.

i love you too

[Former-Member]

I'm glad you are getting things sorted and can read everyone's posts and advice without feeling too overwhelmed. I know what you mean about not knowing where you'd be without here... I don't talk that much on here but I do read a lot. It makes me feel like I'm connecting with people even when I don't say much. I don't really have any other friends anymore.
Do you think moving out would be an option or too much of a stress right now? @outlander

[Former-Member]

I just want to float away on a cloud... there is nothing in this life left for me. My friends sent me flowers when I told them what I'm going through. But they don't try to call me or text - is it because they don't know what to say? Or because they think I'm overreacting? or I'm in the too hard basket. Maybe it's easier to let go than to try to "fix" me. I'm so hurt by the abandonment I am experiencing. All is fine when I'm the fun one who gets drunk and has fun and makes everyone laugh but when I'm broken it's too much effort.

[outlander]

aww my little buddy @Former-Member

anytime you want to chat about anything good or bad or your lonley please jsut tag me and i can even jsut sit with you

see those clouds outside we can do sit n one and see through them and watch all those stars for a while. can you see all the different sizes? sparkling in the night sky

your friends did a nice gesture and to me that says they want to be there but they really arent sure what to do or say.as you said they often see the 'fun' you. thye to me seem like they do care but jsut arent sure.

you could try to organise a day with them not drinking but just do something like go to the movies or go out for coffee and jsut have the gernal how are you chat hows work hows your pets etc etc

here for you buddy

and sending as much love and huugs as i can to you- hoping you can feel it through the screen

[Former-Member]

Thanks @outlander it's hard because they live in Sydney so we only keep in touch via phone calls and texts unless I go back for a visit or someone visits me so I feel like I'm kind of losing everyone. Even my two friends here, one of them I don't think really understands and it's getting too hard. Ive really started to turn a bit agoraphobic - I just can't cope being out with anyone except Mr Nooks and certain people (or work, luckily that is ok). So I was meant to go see my friend tomorrow and she text me saying change of plan we're meeting at the shopping centre with this other girl (her friend) so I had to tell her I just can't, tried to explain I just can't do the crowd thingriggt now. She wrote back to say that she misses me. So I feel bad, I spose it looks like I'm not trying

Did you ever read the magical faraway tree books by Enid Blighton? I wish I could climb the tree into the land above the clouds and just float away and stay there forever