The Weekly Friday Feast

[Mazarita]

@Crazy_Bug_Lady Back again, hadn't quite gone when I saw your post. I like the name Kasey for a K named heifer. 🙂

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

@Appleblossom it's not that I think it'll be a disaster that scares me and makes me feel miserable, it's the fear of choosing long-term. I am scared, coz I feel like I have to live.
And I don't know if I can do that.

[Appleblossom]

It can be hard when we have been isolated so long ... but ...

you have lasted already for a while ... no idea how old you are ..sorry ... sometimes you have to act as if you are going to here ... there are no guarantees that parents will last ... accidents happen.

Worst comes to worse the heifer will be ok ... it confronting to feel making a commitment

Thats one of the reasons why I think my life is weird .. as I was confronted with a live needy 6 week old child so I had to stay ... could not walk away ... in a way it was exactly the perfect sort of thing to keep me on the planet.

We do need to be needed.

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

@Appleblossom
I feel bad for laughing... I'm picturing you walking along the street and a baby falling out of the sky, Stork Delivery...

I'm 26 btw.
Scary as hell. I didn't aim to make it to 20, and somehow I'm still here...

I tried to discuss it all with my psychologist, but it got way confusing as I ended up crying (first time) and ended up dissociating so I wasn't very helpful. I think he was trying to get me to think "why" I feel like this, to challenge it, but I still have no idea. I've been thinking about it since...

[Appleblossom]

You made me laugh too in the middle of a serious conversation ... I guess that is why peer to peer is often best.

You are much younger than I figured before .. I am 55.

If you have struggled since before 20 then that is a big credit to you .. to achieve your quals and responsible work.

I never actually had a thought of SH or SI before my sister's suicide ... she was 21 and I was 25. I knew of  others' suicidal ideation eg through school friend and Link up and then my siblings told me about the stories of when they were in hospital.

The stork was a man who asked me to care for his baby while still in utero in a former girlfriend who was in Royal Park ... on our first date ... it was all very complicated.  It was a couple of weeks before my sister died. My head was exploding .... both our houses were put up for sale ... and we had to find a new place ,,, we moved in together ... baby was born 3 months later ... Protective Services started visiting and assessing me as mother was pretty psychotic and immature though 20 years older than me at the time. I was full time carer for 16 years.

Coincidences ... timing . .. ??

Can you somehow "harness" the action/energy in motion of SH to self care ... like getting special lotion and essential oil and try and heal your skin ... something like that helped me stop biting my nails ... once for a while ... but it might be a start ... a deliberately self nourishing act

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

It's Friday, and you know what that means!!!

Friday Feast!!

My contribution for dinner is...

Not sure why, but I have been after OJ all week. I suppose there are worse things to crave. 🙂

How has everyone's week been?? I went out and got my hair cut today, which is quite literally a weaight off my shoulders. 🙂

[NikNik]

Hi @Crazy_Bug_Lady

I love a good hair cut (when it goes well!).

Oddly, I can completely identify with your orange juice craving.

My week has been hectic. Next week is Mental Health week, so there's been a lot to do! The sunshine in Sydney was amazing though, so took some time out and have a walk around some markets.

[Jacques]

Happy friday feast everyone, i am so proud of @Crazy_Bug_Lady for livening up the forums the last couple of days, thank you @Crazy_Bug_Lady!!!!

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

Yeah, I had a bad haircut experience years ago, so I get really nervous about haircuts. I don't go anywhere special, just a walk-in salon at a supermarket.

What sort of planning goes into MH week??

I like Mental Health week. I post heaps of stuff on Facebook, prolly drive my friends nuts. But I use the week to be completely open about my MH, and I'd like to hope it encourages people to think about it. I actually became really good friends with someone who was originally just an aquaintance during MH week, as my openess encouraged him to speak to me about his own struggles, and as a result he is working on getting treatment.

[Crazy_Bug_Lady]

Thanks @Jacques

I let myself fall into a down mood, and I wasn't really trying to get myself out. I've had a few small SH slip-ups, but I am not counting them, I don't want to re-start my counter. What drew me out was over the weekend I stopped taking my meds. Baaad idea. Had to see my GP to get a sick certificate, and had a chat to him.

And I think what has really helped my mood (on top of taking my meds again ) is coming on here and chatting to people.

Glad to be back with my friends!