The safe room- somewhere to just come and sit.... offload... feel supported

[Former-Member]

How is everyone? I'm making fruit spritzers for everyone who's in the warmer winter areas and proper hot chocolate for everyone else. 

I want to cuddle the dog in my friends yard but it's a flea bag 😞 I don't want to feel alone.

[Appleblossom]

Hey @Former-Member I often dont know what to say, so press the support button a lot. Love the idea of cool drink ...

@TheVorticonThe (in)visibility dichotomy has been big for me too.  Key for me is ambivalence and part of my attachment style.  Which "a" word? They are both important. 

@Lostandalone @Maggie @NatureLover So good to have you around feeling warmth and giving encouragement.

[Lostandalone]

a hot chocolate would go down and absolute treat here right now @Former-Member 

I really wish I had a dog to cuddle... flea bag or not....  but alas... a stffed cow and a stuffed llama are all I have.... at least the cow is a heat pack... so I can warm her up ( her name in Moo-nerva) and she keeps me toasty 

[TheVorticon]

@Former-Member the stuff with my psych is a total mess. I'm going to see a separate counselor to help me decide whether to keep seeing my psych or not. I've tried one separate counselor and discussed some ideas about what I think could improve things with my psych, but I'm going to see a different one who might be a candidate for taking over from my psych if that's what the decision ends up being. However I'm so massively attached to my psych that I was painfully miserable about the idea of not seeing him anymore, even though I keep getting my feelings hurt when talking to him. I'd think I was exaggerating if I hadn't been dealing with it for the past few weeks, but it was really bad. But then I came up with an idea of how I could possibly keep seeing him without it being harmful, and immediately started feeling better. So now I just have to keep hoping that that's going to work, and that my psych doesn't end up making the decision for me.

That's hard that you're feeling hurt and left alone. I'm sorry to hear that 😞 Does your push/pull with your psychs follow any sort of pattern or rhythm, or is it kind of random?
My psych neither pushes nor pulls - he just seems to sit there like an annoying tetherball but my racket doesn't have a middle so I don't even get to hit a ball, it just swipes straight through and I wear myself out over and over again.

[TheVorticon]

@Appleblossom "Attachment" was the word my psych didn't want to use. There are other words I could use with him instead, but I'm not sure what words make sense to him. (In)visibility can be a difficult thing to balance in a comfortable way.

@Lostandalone The heat pack cow sounds good, how big is she?
@Former-Member @Lostandalone I'm with you there on wanting dog company. They're much less complicated to interact with than humans too.

[Lostandalone]

[Maggie]

Just dropping off some puppy love. @Former-Member  

[Former-Member]

Thank you all 😊 love the puppy love 💓 

@TheVorticon sorry you're having such a difficult time with your psych. Push & pull is more me going through the spectrum from hating avoiding to being needy and scared someone will leave hurt me, my psychs know that and help me through. Doesn't make it any less intense but it's 'easier' to manage, it's a hard process. I can get very angry and let them know that and do pick up the pieces after now and I've had many embarrassing (which they shouldn't be) times when I had to 'be vulnerable' and admit how scared I am. It took years to get here. I do psychoanalysis and the relationship with my psychs is the base of the therapy or something like that. Attachment is a big part of it. I don't know the terms for stuff like that, but I know it has to do with attachment. And also about boundaries. 

[Lostandalone]

Morning all

one step forward... five steps back

thats how it all feels

just when I think I am doing ok.... another wave hits me

i feel so needy.... I don't want to be a burden.... others have greater problems than I do.... I need to get over it and move on but I can't.... my mind is racing.... I feel like I have run out of tears..... I want to cry.... I want to scream.... I want to run away.... I want to sleep forever.... I just want to feel normal 

sorry gang ... just having a moment 

[NatureLover]

@Lostandalone  I hear you... You feelings are totally valid and there is no comparison to others' problems. I hear that everything feels overwhelming...I really hope that these feeling ease for you soon...