Hey @tyme, thank you for asking after me. I really appreciate it. Reading that description of ant infestations was quite uncomfortable, because I was staying away from them and trying not to panic. Thinking about them in my water and walls set off a lot of distressed thoughts. But now that the ants are a bit more under control and I've booked pest removalists, it is reassuring to know that other people also struggle with this. I'm just trying not to think about ants too much.
I've continued writing down info about the thoughts I've been experiencing. I'm anxious about discussing them with my psych. From everything I've read and learned, OCD makes sense. I think being diagnosed with it would be a relief, because I'd have an explanation that I've already kinda accepted.
When I started getting help for my ED, I was convinced that I had BED, and it was really shocking to be told that I have bulimia. Took a bit to accept/absorb that. I don't want a similar thing to happen here (although obviously I can't control what condition I have). I'm just exhausted 😂
