In my 40s feeling no hope

[Decadian]

Hi again @Jak33

I don't think you are feeling sorry for yourself in anyway - actually - as I have been attached to sites like this one for years I can soon tell if someone is having a pity-party and you're not

And at times our mothers can be the worst - you are obviously not all right - the world is a nightmare for you right now

I have no idea where you can go next - but you do need help - you seem to have exhausted all available avenues - I don't know what else to suggest

It seems terribly unfair that people with a broken leg or cancer get all the cards and flowers - people can see all of this - but not when you are mentally drained and exhausted - and of course there is something wrong - you're worn to a frazzle with all of this

Thanks for the kind words about my son - it was a nightmare - I had invested so much in helping this child - of course - no one can be loved too much -and I did love him - and it left me badly scarred

But people cannot see grief either - but here - I am accepted - and this means the world to me

And I am sure you will get the same help here @Jak33

Decadian

[Princessmolly]

You sound like you are going through such a rough time at the moment 😢 i really hope things turn around for you soon. I hope your children step up and take care of you for a little while. Im 36 and struggle daily with depression. Working is what keeps me sane. If i spend too much time at home alone with my own negative thoughts i really suffer.

[utopia]

@Jàk33. Just found your post and wondering if your adult children might like to have a look at the carers section of SANE. May give them a bit more understanding.