Hello @Angels333
I have seen your comments on the forum recently. I did look at the following website in order to find out what FND/Conversion disorder is and the outward expressions that are experienced by people having FND. https://rarediseases.org/rare-diseases/fnd/
The issues that I face are more to do with compromised nerve pathways through the spinal column, between head, and legs and feet. This has a seriously negative impact on stability and balance. I am concerned that I am not doing enough physical exercise and am overweight. I would like to lose 20 kg at least. A number of things have influenced my weight issue, including medication, dealing or not with depression, lack of sufficient exercise, etc. I don't seem to have the types of seizures that you have described. However, I live on my own. While that means that there is less pressure on me to maintain a standard that I would at least expect of myself for any other person with whom I might live, it means that there is little pressure and consequently things that should be done are often left undone.
Recently, I was working with a friend on re-erection of a fence. The best way that I could contribute was to be on knees with one arm supporting and the other grubbing out the broken stone and concrete, from the old fence that had blown over in a cyclone, that my friend was breaking up with a jack-hammer. Consequently, I am familiar with the "being on all four" to be able to accomplish some tasks.
Another aspect of the situation that I am in is that I can see myself falling increasingly behind in getting the everyday type household tasks addressed and completed. This adds further distress to an already distressing situation.
Because of possible complications, with medication that I take, and an awareness of the likely prospect that I would turn alcohol use into abuse, I have managed to avoid that issue for which I consider myself very fortunate.
A few months ago, after at least 15 yrs, I established contact with a counsellor because of my increasing concern about my circumstances that were further exacerbated by the effects of the cyclone that passed through this area earlier this year. As a result of our discussions, I am becoming more aware and able to consider and address issues that were initially generated in my childhood and teenage years. Some of these unresolved issues have had significant negative impact on my life in various ways. In this respect, the situation you have described does "ring a few bells with me", and I can see some correlations between issues in my life and what you've described.
The description of the issues that I face and am trying to address may or may not connect with you and your situation. However, certainly from my point of view, and hopefully from yours, there may be connections that, by discussion, can lead us to a better understanding of ourselves, our situations and hopefully, some answers to at least some of the questions in our minds.
With My Best Wishes
@HenryX
