A long rave

[Mazarita]

Hi @Sophia1, good to read your post. I can only imagine how much work is involved in preparing your own place for sales inspections. I've only had the experience of having flats sold out under us, and the intrusion of the sales inspections during that period, and the extra work of making the place presentable enough for them in an ongoing way. But people don't look in the cupboards usually if there are tenants living there, so at least when our inspections come up (every three months), we can shove a bunch of things in the cupboards at the last minute, just to get them out of sight. It's a small flat and we have a lot of stuff in it. I know what you mean too about how it really only takes a short time for it all to show its rough edges again. No pets here but small place with lots of stuff gets messy easily. I remember that 'chinese laundry' saying too, I think it was from mum. Nice that you remember those conversations past that we had. It really made me smile when you imagined us trying to pronounce the Gaelic, lol. Hope the feeling of mirth returns to your smile very soon. 

Hey @greenpea, sounds like your day of rest yesterday was rejuvinating. So good to hear of your lovely walk. 25 degrees is a wonderful temperature. Gorgeous that people smiled in a warm way. I did end up at my friend's place. But it was my close friend, not the new friend. I don't think today was the day we were meant to meet up at her place for the first time, not meant to be somehow. Previously we've only met at the local MH centre, and many times walking around the local shops. We always give each other a hug though. That's a promising start. 

Hi @outlander, so sorry to hear of another accident yesterday. Take it easy and maybe a bit slower if you can. You've had it tough lately on the physical as well as emotional level. Gentle with our bodies when that is the case, as much as possible. In any case, I hope you feel a bit better today.

Hi dear @Exoplanet, typical kind of weather, I'd imagine, for where you are. In my mind I imagine it pretty much always hot, at least during the day. But I know you must get cold days too. It's been fairly heavily overcast today, but the sun kept peeping through. My cardigan went on, came off, went on, came off, etc. lol. But the fact I only needed a cardigan gives an indication of how relatively mild it is. We did get down to near zero overnight a couple of weeks ago though. My gut instinct is telling me the lad is the best option. It might be a slower process, and he might have to get used to the job (and maybe make some mistakes that need undoing along the way). I too like that he has admitted he doesn't have much experience. I think the two lots option for payment sounds very reasonable. If it was me, I might want to give a young lad a chance to gain more work experience, rather than go with a 'professional' company that feels like they don't really care. Love to you for it turning out great, whichever way it goes. 

Hi @eth, glad to hear you are getting some rest and you time after the visit by your mum and visit. I'm so curious to hear your stories. You have had a really extended period of adjusting to changes, travelling, visits from family, now a new person becoming part of the extended family home. Do you get on well with sil's mother? Look forward to the next time we get to chat. 

[outlander]

i had an easy physical day today @Mazarita which was helpful but mentall still super drained and triggerred tonight but thats just the usual family things. ill be ok with that.

how are you going?

[Mazarita]

Sounds like you have really made some progress with your emotions, @outlander, to be able to say you can be okay with family struggles. I know I would find that hard to live with. I admire your resilience. 

I'm going pretty well, especially since I got out of the flat and on the buses to my friend's place today. She was in a lot of pain and I gave her a 20 minute massage. I left her in a much better state of being than when I arrived, which always makes me happy to see. Aside from that, I am struggling with an excess of nervous energy at the moment. Started out the day hardly able to keep eyes open. Evening comes and I'm buzzing and overstimulated. It's the way of my bipolar life, I guess. Meds help but don't balance things completely. Still, I am grateful.

[greenpea]

@Mazarita it is so hard isnt it. I wonder what would have happened to the man who I was getting friendly with and then had a manic episode and it kind of killed it if nothing that happened and things had progressed into a relationsip..... mh is a hard one although you both have mh so at least you have that understanding and that is a big one! 

[outlander]

its only a minor thing tonight like the noise levels etc @Mazarita im okish though, im actually watching happy feet part 2. im sure your friend very much appreciated your help and massage today too esp since being n a better state upon leaving. what an amaxing friend you are.
nervous energy is the worst, its knda like all of it bubbling internally but no clue how to use it! maybe doing some of your video would be helpful?

[Mazarita]

@greenpea, I think when you both have MI, it means you have to be very understanding of the other person's quirks etc. Like extra nervousness in them (like me sometimes), and awkward silences between us (I know I can be the cause of that with my nervousness). And then, I don't know about you in this way, but I need to cancel out on things, sometimes even at short notice, because I'm just not well enough for human consumption out in the world. Fortunately, that is less than it used to be, much less so really. Just continuing to push the envelope on what I can do socially, in itself, has helped build resilience in me. Though I'm still a marshmallow, lol. I don't remember you talking about the man who had the manic episode. But I also know that I am much more wary of men with MI because I'm basically a bit afraid of men in general really, though I also can really like men just as friends. But in all cases, I usually like sensitive, gentle men. Wow, you have prompted a rave with your much shorter post. Been missing chatting with you lately, but always love the free spirit in you, GP. 

@outlander, Happy Feet sounds like just what the doctor ordered. Thanks for your kind thoughts about me and my friend. I've just finished a video that I've been working on much longer than usual. Or there might be some small changes I want to make still, but basically it's finished. I may get back to putting on some final touches later tonight, good suggestion. I'm off to have a chicken sandwich for dinner. Maybe see you later. 

[outlander]

catch you later @Mazarita enjoy dinner

[greenpea]

@Mazarita My man .... well he has a really cute dog a black french bull dog and we started talking and kept bumping into each other then one day he said would I like to go walking with him and I said yes. He lives close by so he came to the door one day but alas I was having a manic episode and gave him short shift I was dancing to rap music for 4 hours straight that night. Our paths have crossed since then but the moment has gone .... oh well wasnt meant to be.  Then again I really dont want a man a friend yes but a man no thanks 🙂

[greenpea]

@Mazarita Yes I was totally manic. I heard my voice telling me to dance and that the others could see me dance and liked it and to keep dancing. My daughter ended up putting me to bed ....  it was around the time where I would wander the streets at night.

And he would walk his cute dog who likes to sit on your feet. I love french bull dogs they have such a funny trot.

[Mazarita]

@greenpea, part of the reason why I'd like to make friends with this new woman is that we do keep bumping into each other. It seems like synchronicity to me. That's my favourite kind of magic.

I saw a cute dog today, he looked at me sternly, lol. It was when I was walking up behind the woman walking the dog. She was friendly, most people seem to say hello on the street out where my friend lives. Friendly bus drivers sometimes too.

Ah so it was your manic episode. Sounds very intense with the dancing. I could often dance all night at gay nightclubs when I was younger, even without any contraband substances. I miss dancing! Pretty interesting that it was rap music. It's one kind of music I'm mostly not that keen on, though I can like rap sections in some hip-hop kind of music and there are some exceptions that I do like a whole rap track. Often don't like the lyrics. But I especially like the beats sometimes.